whenever i meet new people i dont give a shit about them. its not because im some sort of misanthrope, but when i lack knowledge about a person i cant bring myself to care about them unless i come across some tidbit of their lives that i find interesting. because i dont care at the get go, i dont even try to engage them in conversation to get to the point where i learn enough about them to BECOME interested in them, thus its sort of a vicious cycle. at various points in my life ive attributed this to a mixture of social awkwardness and introversion, but ive realized that im actually not socially awkward at all and if i am an introvert then shying away from starting conversations with people and avoiding social situations has stopped me from developing relationships with a shitton of possibly cool/interesting people. i guess the simplest solution is to just force myself to break the ice with as many people as i possibly can but id rather somehow teach myself to WANT to do it rather than struggle to put myself out there.