So I realised why I don't like that kid in my year who hacked into my friend's computer account and nearly got him suspended. Why the 'girl next door' for me is just an abusive relationship. Why I'm drawn to places I'm not welcome, like PD in the early days: (1) he's a lot like me and (2) Nobody involved in the latter situations liked me. I'm attracted to people and things that don't like me because I don't like myself. Just think about it, would you be friends with that voice inside your head if it was a living, breathing person?