im too much of a pussy. this may come as a SHOCK to some of you whom ive rendered awestruck with fearless feats such as calling people faggots on internet forums or asking girls to show me their boobs on omegle, but it is true. im much too afraid of repercussions, of how people's opinions of me might change, of REJECTION and thats caused me to forgo a lot of things that i really shoudnt have to forgo. this needs to stop. i need to be more CONFIDENT. i need to take more risks. i need to force myself upon the world like a rapist and pleasure it against its own wishes.
yes this is me, rayne, ascaris, zeus, lawrence iii, homosexual, and all of the plethora of various internet names ive gone by and my real name which i will not post because im still afraid of google indexing me (this doesnt count!!!). i have come to this stark realisation at 4 am on thursday, the 17th of may 2012 after coming across a certain personality in a life changing moment in a place where one would least expect anything substantial to occur. i am going to sleep now and hope my future self is fully cognizant of the emotions that have forced me to make this incredibly shitty thread, and while i may regret making this topic later i hope i will still follow through with the task ive given myself