somehow in the course of somewhere i've become this depressing "granddad"-esque sort of person. i get insanely paranoid reading the news, only really read poetry and use barely any technology. i'm sort of okay being like this but it means that most of what people say/do is utterly incomprehensible to me, and my only real appeal as a person lies in the fact that i'm a rather novel archaism.
so i've started to dress very archaically, act very anachronistically and just try and make there a kind of novel appeal to it. it works - i have a girlfriend again now and i'm quite happy and a lot more *myself* than i was. but it's kind of hard just accepting and dealing with the fact that i am a kind of interesting archaism.