Hi, sorry for seeming so fake, and only having 2 posts, but you all seem to be a respectful bunch to talk to. I was wondering if any of you could give me advice.
You see, I'm a junior in high school, and very Christian. I am abstinant by choice and proud of it. I am deeply religious and live up to the best Christian morals as possible, so I am in a dilemma because of this.
My loving boyfriend of three years was very drunk the other night because he went to one of his friend's parties, and came over to my house at one in the morning (thank you Lord that my mother was not home at the time.). He asked me if I wanted a drink and I calmly said no. He looked upset, started to back away and pulled out his keys. I did not want him to be in trouble for drinking and driving, so I asked him to come inside. Bad move.
We sat down and he immediately started flirting, telling me nice things, which is odd for him so quickly and in such the state he was. I tried to calm him down and gave him some bread to try to sober him up a bit. But he kept going at it, and eventually was starting to kiss me, a lot. I asked him to stop in a sharper tone then I ever have to him before. He looked shocked and sat back into the seat for a while.
About two hours later, I was about to fall asleep when he started to tap me. I shook off the tiredness and asked him what was up. He said he really wanted me. As in to make love with me. I quickly said no to the idea but he pressured it on more, saying that I must not love him if three years isn't enough preperation. I told him of the churches beliefs in abstinance but he kept going at it. Before long he threw me down on the couch and pulled off my shirt. Before he could get any farther I punched him. I didn't really mean to, but it was instinctive, I punched him right in the face.
I don't know if it was the alcohol or what, but his nose was bleeding, a lot. He stood up, held his hand to his nose, stumbled around and stared at me. He then looked the most angry I had ever seen him, he screamed a profane absinity at me and stormed out of the door. This was Friday night and he didn't show up for school today.
I know he was on the borderline of raping me, and how that is blatently going against many of the churches morals, but I still love him so much and I've loved him for three years now. Do you think that I should give him another chance because of the alcohol's effect or just cut off ties before anything worse happens?